Friday, November 8, 2013

Vayetzei -- 5774

Jacob our father is alone in the wilderness and he is offered a choice.

Stopped for the night, the sun suddenly set, he makes his bed and envisions a ladder stretching from the ground to the sky.  Angels flit up and down it.  Surely, Jacob is invited to climb the ladder, to take hold of a rung and soar to the heights – to dance with the angels and achieve the ultimate bird’s eye view: the entire land and his entire life stretched out before him.  Jacob is granted the most awesome, complete vision of all.
He doesn’t climb the ladder.

We cannot know why Jacob doesn’t move from his spot.  Perhaps it’s because the ultimate big picture is beyond our ken.  As human beings, our scope is inherently limited.  The master plan is not for us to know.

People regularly ask me why.  “Why did I get hit by a car?”  “Why did I get sick?”  “I’ve been a good person -- why is God doing this to me?”  (We rarely ask why we got the job of our dreams, why we are healthy, why our lives are bubbling with goodness and blessing.)  The simple, sometimes painful truth is that we cannot know why.  Human beings are finite, and we are denied the bird’s eye view of our lives.  We are confined to living them moment by moment.  Travelers through life as Jacob was, we travel with a compass, but not a map.
In fact, I think there’s rarely a why, only a what – as in, “what will I do with this knowledge?  How am I to live knowing that the world isn’t fair, that pain is very real, that life is brief, that I am not unique?”  This is the true challenge and, simultaneously, opportunity for growth.

The story of Jacob’s ladder has a fascinating twist.  Even though Jacob doesn’t ascend the ladder to heaven, he realizes nonetheless that “God is in this place” (Genesis 28:16).
God, “standing up above it,” is the bird’s eye view (Genesis 28:13).  God is the master plan.  And at the same time, God is right beside us, allowing us glimpse the totality of life through this present moment, and also to know that we are not alone.

God is both places, here and there.

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